Change in Focus

The last month I've been trying something new. As you all know by now I've spent years...MANY years focused on my fibromyalgia trying hundreds of different things and wasting thousands of dollars in the process. My whole life is very centered on my pain and to be fair what choice do I have? It's pretty hard to ignore something so prominent and in your face. But a life focused on pain can be a pretty bleak focus at times. So this brings me to my new focus-being healthy.

I've always cared about healthy eating but in the last month I've decided to make that my focus. I'm avoiding fast food (which I never liked in the first place!) & as much processed food as I can. I'm researching recipes, green smoothies and different types of teas. And you know what I like my new focus! Obviously my pain is still a constant thought in my head but now I have something else more positive to focus on too. And I'm not focusing on healthy eating in an effort to cure my fibro-although it can't hurt! I'm doing it because it's the right thing to do. I only have 1 body and I want to be a good steward of it. Plus in the 18 years that I've had chronic pain and fatigue I have taken thousands of pills to try to improve it. I can only imagine what that does to my stomach, liver and kidneys. So whatever I can do to improve my health and flush out some of those toxins I'm all about.

So as I go through this journey I hope to share with you what I'm learning especially if I find that anything I'm trying improves my fibromyalgia. But I want to hear from you. How do you make healthy living a priority? What are you favorite recipes, supplements or health products?

Be Still

Today this verse is on my mind

Be still and know that I am God Psalm 46:10

Being still is something we struggle with as a culture. Everyone is always busy and rushing from one thing to the next. Having fibromyalgia or really any chronic health condition changes that. Your body won't let you go and go and eventually whether you like it or not you are forced to be still. Maybe laying on the couch all day sounds like a dream to you but laying there day after day just becomes boring and lonely real quick.

I'm going through a season in my life right now where my need for God is very apparent. I desire for the depth of my walk with Him to grow but I know that requires a commitment on my part to spend more time in prayer and Bible study.

And that's where I'm beginning to realize that the forced stillness is a gift. There are millions of things that can so easily distract and derail me but when my body gives me no choice but to slow down it gives me a chance to remember what's most important, to pray, read the Bible, relax and recharge my body. It's in that stillness that I hear most clearly from God. It makes me wonder why I've ever fought taking that time to be still.

So what are you thinking this Thursday? Share in the comments or put up a link to your own blog post. What are your thoughts on being still?

Newly Diagnosed, Now What? Week 5 Give Back

It's my final video in my Newly Diagnosed, Now What series. Check it out!


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Heavenly Acupressure Mat Review & Giveaway

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Fibromyalgia Cure?

A couple weeks ago I was so blessed to spend a week in Los Angeles with friends. I had no idea when I booked it in mid December how necessary this trip would be, but God did. As I shared before the 2 weeks leading up to the trip I was in some of the worst pain if my life, other than going to work I didn't leave my couch. I tried every trick I had and nothing would ease the pain. Even the night before my trip I cried because I had no idea how I was even going to make it to LA. I couldn't even lift my head off the pillow without intense dizziness, nausea & lightheadedness. In that moment I felt God speak to me clearly to trust Him and surrender to His plans for the week.

In that moment I stopped worrying and made it the prayer of the week that God's will would take precedence and that He would meet my needs on this trip. I went to bed that night not knowing what the morning would bring. As the day went on, hour by hour, I felt my vertigo leaving me. By the time I landed in LA it was completely gone. Each day my neck and back pain lessened. Every time I saw the ocean or a gorgeous sunset it felt like a gift from God. Every morning waking up to another fun day instead of work was a sense of relief . Every day was so sunny & warm & I soaked in every moment I could. I realize how cheesy this sounds but I felt like Dorothy when she landed in OZ- everything was so bright and sunny. Ohio is so gray and dreary in the winter and I had forgotten how beautiful a "summer" day is. The joy of sweet fellowship with my friends was refreshing for my soul. God knew my needs far better than even I did. I finished Ann VosKamp's book while on this trip and I had more than my share of blessings to count that week.

And then it happened, Sunday my last day in LA-I had almost no pain. Everyday I gauge my pain on a scale of 1-10. In winter, my pain is usually a 9 or 10. In summer, it's maybe a 5 or 6. But the last couple days of my trip my pain was maybe a 2. I had not felt that good in years and actually had come to believe I would never feel that way again. The combination of warm weather and not working was just what my body needed to feel good. For the first time in a long time I have hope. Hope that maybe one day I'll be pain free. Yes it's not realistic right now for me to live somewhere warm and not work or work very little but I also believe nothing is impossible for God and He could make a way. I'm also looking into other possibilities and doctors that might be able to help. In the 18 years that I've had this pain and fatigue I've seen more doctors than I can count and tried everything they've told me to do from vitamins and elimination diets to new meds, acupuncture and chiropractic adjustments. After awhile it's easy to believe nothing will work. But that one day with almost no pain had given me hope and I'm clinging to that with everything in me.

So the whole point of this long post is to ask you to pray for me, to pray big for me, that one day I will be pain free!

And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:19

Look at the nations and watch--and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told. Habakkuk 1:5