No need to beat around the bush, I'll just say it, it's been a very rough week. Our mild winter gave way to frigid temperatures & when the temperature plummeted 40 degrees last week I descended into the pit of chronic pain. From Friday night to Monday morning I didn't leave the couch except to go to the bathroom. My neck and back pain was so intense I literally felt nauseous from the pain. I spent all weekend alternating between different heating pads. By Sunday night my pain became manageable enough to leave the couch. All week I have struggled through work and spent every night on the couch often in tears. I don't mean for this post to sound like I'm complaining. I'm just trying to paint for you a picture of what it's like to live with chronic pain especially in the winter. There is no pain that compares to my "winter pain". It feels like I went to the roof of my 2 story house, jumped off and landed on my back. I hated to admit it but I felt my pain slowly sucking the joy right out me. As much as strive to keep a proper perspective on my pain and live a life that rejoices in Jesus regardless of how I feel, it was just one of those weeks where I could see how truly imperfect I am. How much I need Him for everyday, every minute.
In the midst of this pain filled week I got a surprise in the mail. Someone anonymously sent me some money and a Bible verse. It was truly so sweet of that person and an incredible blessing to me but even more than the generous gift of money, it has been the verse they wrote that I can't get out of my head. I'd heard it before and even memorized it years ago but this time it felt like this verse was written just to me.
"The LORD your God is with you,
He is mighty to save.
He will take great delight in you;
He will quiet you with His love,
He will rejoice over you with singing.”
As I have laid down night after night in pain staring at the ceiling because it hurt my neck too much to turn to watch TV, I am reminded of that verse.
The Lord my God is with me-even in this pit of pain
He is mighty to save- even from this situation that at times feels hopeless
He takes great delight in me-the Lord loves me and just because He is allowing this pain doesn't mean He wants me to suffer.
He will quiet me with His love-quiet all my fears, anxieties & the chaos of this pain.
He will rejoice over you with singing- The Lord rejoices over little old me. Oh how this truth delights my heart!
Are you in the midst of a struggle this week? Do you need the reminder that Jesus is with you and He is mighty to save? I sure needed that reminder and I'm so thankful to my mystery friend for being obedient to God and blessing me this week.
And the joy of joys is this week I am in sunny LA enjoying the sun, almost no pain and time spent with dear friends.
Though sorrows may last for the night, the joy DOES come in the morning!