In that moment I stopped worrying and made it the prayer of the week that God's will would take precedence and that He would meet my needs on this trip. I went to bed that night not knowing what the morning would bring. As the day went on, hour by hour, I felt my vertigo leaving me. By the time I landed in LA it was completely gone. Each day my neck and back pain lessened. Every time I saw the ocean or a gorgeous sunset it felt like a gift from God. Every morning waking up to another fun day instead of work was a sense of relief . Every day was so sunny & warm & I soaked in every moment I could. I realize how cheesy this sounds but I felt like Dorothy when she landed in OZ- everything was so bright and sunny. Ohio is so gray and dreary in the winter and I had forgotten how beautiful a "summer" day is. The joy of sweet fellowship with my friends was refreshing for my soul. God knew my needs far better than even I did. I finished Ann VosKamp's book while on this trip and I had more than my share of blessings to count that week.
And then it happened, Sunday my last day in LA-I had almost no pain. Everyday I gauge my pain on a scale of 1-10. In winter, my pain is usually a 9 or 10. In summer, it's maybe a 5 or 6. But the last couple days of my trip my pain was maybe a 2. I had not felt that good in years and actually had come to believe I would never feel that way again. The combination of warm weather and not working was just what my body needed to feel good. For the first time in a long time I have hope. Hope that maybe one day I'll be pain free. Yes it's not realistic right now for me to live somewhere warm and not work or work very little but I also believe nothing is impossible for God and He could make a way. I'm also looking into other possibilities and doctors that might be able to help. In the 18 years that I've had this pain and fatigue I've seen more doctors than I can count and tried everything they've told me to do from vitamins and elimination diets to new meds, acupuncture and chiropractic adjustments. After awhile it's easy to believe nothing will work. But that one day with almost no pain had given me hope and I'm clinging to that with everything in me.
So the whole point of this long post is to ask you to pray for me, to pray big for me, that one day I will be pain free!
And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.
Look at the nations and watch--and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told. Habakkuk 1:5